Lost hours.

To you-know-who-you-are.

You remember the day?, the first day when i met you in person?
Same mass, same advisor, yet we never talked nor even know your name.

Irony, we know each other like a small kid learning jawi. With Alif, Ba, Ta. In 'oath' that i never thought i will be into. With you, together. With promises, decisions. With the name of Allah, death do us part.

Baby steps ; We started awkward. We grow up big. We talk deep. There is hard times. As hard as my laugh talking about random things into late in the night with stupid questions and ridiculous jokes.Lucky,to have you by my side. Even knowing every single song in your playlist every morning. And sang it together like a bunch of idiots. And i love you, like i love a mini bar in our apartment. Served me chilled all the time.

You remember, the hard times? When she left me all alone. And all i had is you and friends. Another you left by another 'she'. World seems tumbling down. I started to buy myself some time to be alone. My tracks were all a sad song, with millions of thoughts trying to relate reality and somebody else's pathetic lyrics. I don't want to study anymore. And it reflects my bad first semester results. That time is hard for both of us.

And then you came. With your funny words, with your unexpected agenda throughout the day. You know how sad i am. And you never let me be alone in the room. We pledge to move on. And we believe it's hard. And from there, we share lots of thing in common. We take every littlest things about the girl we love into something we can forget, by taking things easy. As easy as sarcasm. You change my small world, into something infinite and i believe, we will go further.

And then things got bitter. You got your own problems.Distance makes it worse. Perception kills. We make our own introductions and conclusions. We dwelling on some mistakes. An honest mistakes.

And you never knew how deep i know you. I even know your 3rd self. To know how selfish you are. And to know how selfish i am.

And it's us being selfish. We take our own emotions too deeply. As deeply as an ego.
I believe it's you and me, to keep our head back up. In the end, it's not about lost love anymore. Or broken promises, of why a feelings towards a girl we love back then can crush this relationship.

In the end, it's us alang.

Things might changed. Priorities too.
But do know this,

Bukan pasal bros over hoes. I've seen, how much friends can be so much to us.
Try by having the girl you love so much, you live happily ever after, but you still feel alone and empty. Trust me, I've seen it. I've seen it many.

You tell me to move on. I am still working slow. And i know you're much slower.
But please, that was the biggest day of my life. And you missed it.

So, i don;t want to talk how you gonna make up to that lost hours.
But, please. I'm not an asshole that just ask you for something. But please.

Be something, be someone, who can sacrifice a feelings for both of us.
And as i much i care for you, i'm not expecting for you to come during my hard times, but an honest wish, greetings and even a smiley emoticon from you on that day can means world to me.

But i didn't see it coming. Sorry.