Seorang kapten.

I was strong at heart, stubborn, and i almost hate everything that it seems hate-able. Dia macam, dah kau sorang lelaki kat rumah, yang berkepit dengan ayah yang sempoi je perwatakan dia, masa dulu tu, aku jadi rebel sikit. Kuat melawan. Dengan mak dgn ayah sekalipun aku melawan dan Alhamdulillah, aku masih tak disumpah jadi kasut sukan . And i was lucky, mak garang. Kalau tak, i'm not here, in this office, tulis blog , mengelat tak buat kerja, sengih mcmni he he he

No wonder, bila dah makin besar, my heart grew fonder (ececeeyy), ikut perangai ayah yg rileks je walaupun dalam kepala tengah perang. I start to take things for granted benda benda yang remeh, tak ambil tahu perkara yang orang sibuk nak tahu supaya nampak 'ambil tahu'. Compared to those days, when i think a lot.

My conversation with mama getting longer, and crappier, and of course happier. From asking hows my work, into what my favorite modern food kat KL, sampailah drag ke topik mengarut, 'bini abang nnti free hair ke bertudung' dan 'abang ni perlukan bini yg garang tapi comei haha'. And yeah, we're into deeper conversation and i'm ready to share my life that i'm soo ego about, about this 24 years of living.

And until now, one of the best moment of our life, is from hard work, and even a hard life. I try to fit in everyone shoes, walks a little, stumble and walk again, knowing that you will do alright.

Dan nasihat yang terbaik, bagi aku bukan daripada orang yang sedia ada baik dari kecik. Nasihat terbaik adalah dari orang yang paling jahat, manage to find a way back, and tell you how to live the differences.

Kita ni kapten kat diri kita sendiri. Jgn takut if you're suck at it. At least for now.