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Let this reality sink in..

I want this relationship with my pretty but awkwardly funny wife and sons keeps going strong, my paycheck don't suck, my productivity heightens, so i can drive home happily with my cool cars, and smiles all the way to strangers. It was perfect day, as i gets hold of my cute cat, watching some TV's, hop on some spotify checking out random songs, in which i hope, hipster enough so i could brag 'nah, i'm hearing this long time ago'. And a few phone call to my beloved family & acquaintances, saying i'm all fine, and planning for a vacation someday, together.

Well, it seems pretty enough, until this day, this hour, maut tu datang menjemput.

To translate what i've been doing for 24 years, to get what i want, to satisfy the myth that 'Saya sudah berjaya'? Bagi aku itu satu kegagalan yg cukup nyataaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

As a reminder, kejar akhirat, dunia sama sama ikut.

Heh, aku tgh kejar dunia ni. Same goes to orang orang yg selalu dikecewakan, we put our God below enough, and you just can't tell the difference, whether you should try more, harder, or you just need to let this one go.

Allah hears you. In mere silence, in loudest cry. Turner of the hearts, -yg sering berubah-ubah